Born Free

SO, back i am in vermont. weeeee.... in two days i have read harry potter and the socerers stone, and i have finished Queen of the Dammed. Basically i have gone crazy with the reading. I got two books from the pasters wife that i will be starting soon, hopefully to finish just as soon so i can go buy harry potter #2. oh yeah, and im gonna paint this really pretty picture of a boat.

i love summer for these reasons.

I ended up not going to Maine to the wedding, maybe ill go up later in the week, maybe not. havent quite made up my mind, guess thats why im so random

i really dont have much to say, cause well, i havent been up to much. but i am really really antsy, so i think im gonna stop with the emails now, its driving me batty...

pic from ohio...

sleepy

Wanna know what happens when you sleep all day? you dont sleep at night....

so yesterday i got back from ohio... it was a sad day, so let me start from the beginning...

almost two weeks ago, cadaver lab finally ended. on the 3rd of july. i stayed in philly for 2 days resting up and such, then i drove home to vt, and stayed there for a couple days. Last wednesday i left for PA again, spent the night in scranton with breezy then drove to Ohio on thursday to spend time with the guy i call my boyfriend :) tim... met his parents and hung out there until tuesday when i left to come back to philly.

so, i wont be online to update much this summer, since im gonna be all around. ill drive home sometime around saturday, then go to maine for a wedding, then back to vt for a week, then to nova scotia, back to philly, back to ohio, back to philly, maybe VT, back to philly for school. im gonna end up killing my car! talk about road trip!

I'll post pictures later of the last couple of weeks, just didnt want you guys to think i dropped off the planet. i will try to update as much as i can, but in vt, the internet kinda sucks, so i dont go online much.

oh yeah, today, i decided to buy only healthy food to eat.. YAY.. and i bought a sucker fish to clean my tank... yay for sucker fishes!!!

no one likes you when your 23

wanna hear a funny story?

This proves that i am downright rediculously accident prone
So anyway, on friday i had had a long day with cadavers... i was tired, and really, i wanted to take a nap, but since i like to exercise about 4 times a week at LA fitness, i decided that i really needed to go. Well, during the afternoons (before 4pm) the gym decides that its a good idea to play slow music that makes me want to sleep. So, as im walking on the treadmill, there is relaxing music, and a cow milking competition on ESPN... yes.. COW MILKING!!! Anyway, my friend Elizabeth who was next to me, put on her headphones for obvious reasons, so i decided that it would be ok to shut my eyes for a second, while still walking... well wouldnt you know i fell asleep or something cause the next thing i knew, i had flown off the back of the treadmill and heard a nice POP noise....

i sprained my ankle pretty extensively. could barely walk on it... and now 3 days later its still swollen, purple, green, and blue... yup.. blue... didnt know skin could change so many different colors... it even hurts way up into mid calf... im pretty angry at the deep peronial nerve.... and the fibulocalcaneal ligament... stupid ankle.. and stupid me...





on a side note, its 1am.. i have an exam at 8:30am and i am wired as all get out... its terrible... grr.. i wanna sleep

Name that Body Part

So, this week has been fun. I had a good birthday, took two exams and then went to elizabeths for the weekend. we went to a theme park, a cancer walk, and just generally hung out with her family. It was fun.

We are now into dissecting the heart and lungs of our cadavers.... name this body part:



basically: cystic fibrosis is bad....

and here are better pictures of this weekend at the theme park:

2-3

happy birthday to me... happy birthday to me... happpppyyyyy birthdayyyyy to meeeeeeeeeeee.... happy birthday to me!!

2-3 now.. watch out


oh yeah, and i got two big exams today... can life get any better??

i am lost

I found a way to watch the second season of LOST, and BOY am i excited... LOST is the best!! im addicted... and finally to a non-girly show.

one depressing thought... this fall will be my 20th year of school... wow...

blah

so.... im tired... school sucks... no class friday, instead we have a mock practical saturday. Switchin days, aint so fun, and unfortunately that means i cant go to the Baja Competition. im sad. i wanted to spend more time with laura. at least i get to pick her up at the airport on friday :)...

speaking of which, my birthday is NEXT FRIDAY!!! the big 2-3.... humm....

anyway... my life is boring, i got nothin

cadaver

so... havent updated in awhile... heres what has happened

Got my car back YAY

Usen visited

Bre and Auntie visited

parents visited

All three groups visited at one time.. fulll apt

Took unit 11 exam on tuesday

Cadaver Anatomy started Wednesday

Cadavers are gross... ick ick ick, but as long as you dont think about it, it doesnt get too bad... the worst part is dropping fat tissue on your shoes, and having it get between your toes... ewwwwwwww.... oh yeah, and the slimy, mucus like crap thats all over the body...

we named our cadaver little debbie (like the snack cakes)she was 63 when she died, and she died of cystic fibrosis

today we found the occipital triangle, and the spinal cord.... we have uncovered the entire back to the ribs and the shoulders are all uncovered, with muscles peeled back. i think tomorrow is more of moving muscles of the shoulder, and exposing the gluteus maximus. maybe one day ill get pictures.

4 more weeks of anatomy to go!!

oh yeah, and i havent been sleeping at night, and its too hot to eat during the day, i think i may die.. today i have had in total: one bowl of cereal, one soft pretzal, one yogurt, cup of rice... and thats it... its 10pm... not hungry.. nope

latin dancing is a freakin good workout....

and thats my life in a nutshell, sorry i dont update so much, its hard to when i dont even get to sit down and relax :(

ssstudy

Im havin a really hard time studing tonight... its just not happening for me....

I got a gym membership at LA fitness, so now i have to workout since im paying for it. It will be good to be in shape to move people around... ill be a Buff PT...

since a new semester has arisen, i need to improve my GPA at least a point, so please pray for that.

pictures from when F-Bomb visited :) We had a great time, and no, i didnt yell out F-BOMB in the airport.. ha.. that woulda been bad!

claass

So... F-Bomb is here and i am happy!! YAY she made me banana bread and it was delicious! We had craft time last night and it was loads of fun, no plans for tonight however. It is really really nice having her here! I like having friends around.

Its been nice lately Timmy P was here from Tuesday till Sunday. We got to go up to vt and see the fam. It was a good time. Sunday we went to visit Katelyn and Derek. Good times all around.

Currently i am in class. 3 hour lecture from 9-12 on Low Back Pain continued, and then another 3 hour lecture from 1-4 on Concentra Health Services Company Overview and workers comp. Back to the grind. Next week is my last week of classes for awhile then i got a month and a half of cadaver dissection. What a lovely plan. however from July 3 - September 1, i am doing NOTHING AT ALL!! YAY

I went to the beach last week. i burned bad. i peel. i itch... ouchy.. stupid jersey shore!

annnnddd pictures from the past 2 weeks









pictures with F-Bomb up and coming

haha

So, i slept in until 2 today.... i think i need to stop that... seriously.. 2!!!! anyway... i had some pretty crazy dreams while sleeping... so.. here it goes

my friends from high school and i decided to build these random huge ladders. after trying to find our way back to ambler by following the train tracks in my car (which by the way was still sad) oh yeah, and then i was at my old k-8 school in rutland town after an ice storm and i couldnt turn toward my house so i had to drive all the way down to the bottom of the hill. The turn around at the bottom of the hill had been turned into a landromat and so randomly my mom shows up and wants to wash her hands, so i had to make a solution in the landromat so she could wash her hands, and then we drove home... wierd... but she drove cause i was too scared. ok... now back to the ladders. so... anyway... we were building these ladders up on killington during the summer, and it had been turned into this camp like place. and it had big guns and a hotel. so i was carrying around this massive gun for a prank and to get the boards to build these big ladders to no where. so anyway, these big ladders went up probably 30 feet to no where and then once you got to the top you slid back down them.. yeah.. slid back down ladders... right... random dream.... so we all decided to sleep there once we tore back down the ladders again. I talked to Luke (bf from high school) about why we never hang out, and he said its cause i never call him, and so we made plans to hang out. then i went up to the hotel and took out my contacts and got ready to go to sleep.. in the morning i was trying to sort things without contacts.. yeah... great idea andrea... and we got some free samples of makeup... :( i was sad when i woke up because the stuff i got was really cute. so then put back on my contacts and i was putting on my makeup with my friend Ashley from high school swinging whatever it was that i was on. And we were talking to this guy Charlie from LOST about his character. (hes definately one of my favorites who may possibly die this season and im terribly sad about that) Anyway he was telling us that its lookin like his character is going to die at the end of the season, which made me sad.

Well thats all i can remember from my dream... moral of the story, dont sleep till 2!!!

Today, i need to go grocery shopping, return LOST to the video store, and mop my floors and clean the tub... yup yup... what a day it will be...

DUN DUN DUNNNNNNN

So... Spring Semester is finally over

The end of the semester was crazy for me, i just studied and slept. i rarely ate, and sometimes i didnt even sleep enough. it was crazy, ive never been so stressed in my entire life! But it is finally over, and i believe i did my best! Im still waiting on my Spring Semester Final Grades, so PLEAAAASE pray that they turn out well :-D

Since the semester has been over, i have been sleeping, watching movies, and so on.... pretty much NOTHING and it has been absolutely wonderful!

Well.. thats all for now... please keep praying for me :)

Pride

So, i know its been awhile since ive posted, but i am under so much stress, that sometimes i think i will just explode and poof.. be gone.

Friday is my last class of the semester, Monday is the Unit 10 written and practical exams. Tuesday is the big comprehesive, which consists of everything i have learned.. weeee...

Lately ive been learning about pride. Pride keeps us from sharing with others things that would help us out if we just let others it to support us. Pride wants us to look like something we are not, and in doing so we isolate oursleves and makes the stress worse because we arent letting anyone in to help us. I know it sounds kind of confusing, but its true. Anyway, thats my rambling for the day

Please pray for me, as i am still goin through a pretty rough patch. If i make it though tuesday, i should be clear sailing for awhile.

ahhhh

I realized something today.... 30 doesnt seem that terribly old anymore... im scared... whats wrong with me!! AHHHH

Enough

So, today i reached my breaking point. I just couldnt study no matter how hard i tried.. i crashed and burned!!!

I am working on my flexibility to hopfully reduce the pain in my hamstring, we'll see how that goes

I shocked my leg in a lab today to try to get a maximal contraction of my quad.. boy did that hurt, i dont recommend it, it made me want to cry

I am slowly loosing my mind, and i am watching other PT students do the same thing

I bet PT's inflict so much pain on others because their school was so painful they have to get the aggression out somehow....

My life can be summarized as this:
I try desperatly to be good
And i fail miserably
I guess that its a good thing though, because it really shows Gods grace

sad car

Sad Car :(

hell week revisited

so.. i remember at LU how the last week before finals sucked really bad because so many things were due at once. Well.. now, i have hell weeks every other week, cause i have a final every other week. GO MY LIFE!!

i think im going crazy

and seriously!! what is it with the snowing business in APRIL.. the next person that tells me that there is global warming is getting a swift kick in the face!!!

i suck

now, i know that im not the best person, and i make mistakes, but my intentions are good. sometimes i wonder why im still alive. i wonder why im just taking up space. so i guess ill just tell you the story of my day

basically, my friends were goin out to this bar, kildares, that has a live band, our whole class pretty much hangs out there. anyway, i hadnt been out with them all semester and my friend missy was stuck as the DD again. I agreed to go with to keep her company and help control my drunk friends (because they were all talking about how they wanted to get REALLY drunk). Now, when this happends i want to make sure that no guys try to hit on them and get all sketchy. I decided to go and just hang out. I didnt get any drinks. I only had sips of my friends drinks, and that was minimal. well.. at about midnight i was ready to sleep and spent the remainder of the night in a chair just hangin out. well... we finally left and i got home at 2:30. My mom was waiting up for me and she proceeds to tell me how im getting sucked back down to where i was in high school, and that my actions arent glorifying God, and that what i am doing is wrong and about how terrible i am. (She already tells me that i look like a whore when i wear a tank top)

Now, i dont exactly see it this way. I believe that once an a while its good to go out with them and hang out on thier terms so you meet them at their level. Im not goin all crazy and getting drunk, and i avoid bars most of the semester. But i am friends with non-believers and they do go to bars. But because i am friends with non-believers i have been able to share what i believe with them. I think that is good.

I also who have friends that are Christians. i hang out with them too

Am i really a terrible person? Please... let me know if i have any fault with my thinking!!

Im just not ever good enough for imperfect people... i suck

crash

ive had a bad week

i failed a practical yesterday for no good reason

i got into a car accident today, no totaled car, just a mashed front bumper

im about to have a nervous breakdown. please pray for me, i dont know if i can handle much more

sinking

So, i find my life a lot like im sinking... you know whats funny? it reminds me of the story of the apostle (possibly peter) who was able to walk on water only when focusing on Jesus, but when he would take his eyes off him, he would sink. When i focus on trusting God and beliving in his plan, i succeed, im not upset, i know i will make it with His help. When i focus on my own shortcomings and what i am unable to do with only my power, i realize how impossible it is for me to get through this program. I need to remember to focus on Jesus and not myself so i do not sink. I have an exam on Monday. please pray for me!! its a big one! (hense me not being able to post lately, ive been running around like a chicken with its head cut off)