Pride

So, i know its been awhile since ive posted, but i am under so much stress, that sometimes i think i will just explode and poof.. be gone.

Friday is my last class of the semester, Monday is the Unit 10 written and practical exams. Tuesday is the big comprehesive, which consists of everything i have learned.. weeee...

Lately ive been learning about pride. Pride keeps us from sharing with others things that would help us out if we just let others it to support us. Pride wants us to look like something we are not, and in doing so we isolate oursleves and makes the stress worse because we arent letting anyone in to help us. I know it sounds kind of confusing, but its true. Anyway, thats my rambling for the day

Please pray for me, as i am still goin through a pretty rough patch. If i make it though tuesday, i should be clear sailing for awhile.

ahhhh

I realized something today.... 30 doesnt seem that terribly old anymore... im scared... whats wrong with me!! AHHHH

Enough

So, today i reached my breaking point. I just couldnt study no matter how hard i tried.. i crashed and burned!!!

I am working on my flexibility to hopfully reduce the pain in my hamstring, we'll see how that goes

I shocked my leg in a lab today to try to get a maximal contraction of my quad.. boy did that hurt, i dont recommend it, it made me want to cry

I am slowly loosing my mind, and i am watching other PT students do the same thing

I bet PT's inflict so much pain on others because their school was so painful they have to get the aggression out somehow....

My life can be summarized as this:
I try desperatly to be good
And i fail miserably
I guess that its a good thing though, because it really shows Gods grace

sad car

Sad Car :(

hell week revisited

so.. i remember at LU how the last week before finals sucked really bad because so many things were due at once. Well.. now, i have hell weeks every other week, cause i have a final every other week. GO MY LIFE!!

i think im going crazy

and seriously!! what is it with the snowing business in APRIL.. the next person that tells me that there is global warming is getting a swift kick in the face!!!

i suck

now, i know that im not the best person, and i make mistakes, but my intentions are good. sometimes i wonder why im still alive. i wonder why im just taking up space. so i guess ill just tell you the story of my day

basically, my friends were goin out to this bar, kildares, that has a live band, our whole class pretty much hangs out there. anyway, i hadnt been out with them all semester and my friend missy was stuck as the DD again. I agreed to go with to keep her company and help control my drunk friends (because they were all talking about how they wanted to get REALLY drunk). Now, when this happends i want to make sure that no guys try to hit on them and get all sketchy. I decided to go and just hang out. I didnt get any drinks. I only had sips of my friends drinks, and that was minimal. well.. at about midnight i was ready to sleep and spent the remainder of the night in a chair just hangin out. well... we finally left and i got home at 2:30. My mom was waiting up for me and she proceeds to tell me how im getting sucked back down to where i was in high school, and that my actions arent glorifying God, and that what i am doing is wrong and about how terrible i am. (She already tells me that i look like a whore when i wear a tank top)

Now, i dont exactly see it this way. I believe that once an a while its good to go out with them and hang out on thier terms so you meet them at their level. Im not goin all crazy and getting drunk, and i avoid bars most of the semester. But i am friends with non-believers and they do go to bars. But because i am friends with non-believers i have been able to share what i believe with them. I think that is good.

I also who have friends that are Christians. i hang out with them too

Am i really a terrible person? Please... let me know if i have any fault with my thinking!!

Im just not ever good enough for imperfect people... i suck

crash

ive had a bad week

i failed a practical yesterday for no good reason

i got into a car accident today, no totaled car, just a mashed front bumper

im about to have a nervous breakdown. please pray for me, i dont know if i can handle much more