That was wierd...

So, i go to post, type in blogger.com on my browser, and it says that i need cookies inabled before i can log on. So then i go back and type in blogger.com again, and scroll down the history list, find something with a blogger.com/post-create, and BAM! here i am, didnt need to log in, and aparantly i dont have cookies inabled. I found a loophole in the system. HA.. HA.. HA!!!
This morning i tried something different. Since i have class in Solheim at 8 in the morning, i decided that i would work out afterwords. I dont have class after then, and i might as well work out while im there instead of going back to sleep. Exercise apparantly give you more energy than if you went back to sleep for an hour or so. I'll let you know how the progress goes, but so far its much easier to do this, then to find time to work out at 11pm when really, i should be winding down in my room to sleep at 12.
Really, i have a lot on my plate for the next three weeks. Next week i have around 3 finals, and the week after i have another 3 finals. It should be intense, but after that i will be home, snowboarding with my BEAUTIFUL new snowboard. I am so excited, you really have NO idea. aahhhhhhh... My first day home i start my new job, which means i will have a season pass!! I love VT, i really do... and most importantly i will be with my family which i miss so much. This winter will be hard. There has been a lot of problems at home, and this winter we will all be in close quarters. This will probably be the last time we will all be in the same area. I hope that one day we will all end up in the same place, i would prefer Pennsylvania, and so does brez, so maybe thats where we will all try to go. I am praying that she gets into a school there. I want for her to get a good education, and get away from the mistakes her parents made. But God has a plan for her, i just want her to be happy and maintain a good relationship with Him.

oh the joys of marriage

you know what sucks? since no one is around to comment.. ill just tell you, cause i could be waiting awhile. Parents that fight. When i was younger, i thought my parents were going to get a divorce. They fought constantly. I wanted them to break up, because i was tired of hearing them yell. Sometimes i think my mom just likes to yell cause it makes her feel better. That is why i am a timid person. When you are severely yelled at for your entire life, you tolerate being put down so much that you become small. Dont get me wrong, i love my mother, i just hate the ugly person she becomes when shes in a bad mood and she feels the need to yell. Moving on... My parents are beginning to fight again. They have stopped fighting for as long as i have been in college, but its beginning again. Its over little things too. My mom doesnt like it when my dad stops to talk at church. Hes a deacon, thats what he does, and is supposed to do. Well, my mom hates it when he stays after, so she will scream at him if he stays too late. I feel bad for him, he just doesnt know quite what to do, they are two very different people. She loves him for being a good provider and taking care of me, He loves her because she is a good caretaker of the house, but under this are some twisted views. My dad is gone a lot, he works almost too much, and my mom gets lonely. I think because of her loneliness she lashes out. She is unable to stay up really late with him, since she gets up early for work, and he cannot go to bed early, so he will lay in bed for hours after she is asleep until he can actually fall asleep. I am afraid because i see mimiking qualities of my dad in Danny and my mom in me. now im not a yelling person, but i can be stubborn, and i go to bed early, and im not extremely social. Danny loves to stay up late and talk to people. I cant draw conclusions from this, but it still scares me. I wonder how happy my parents really are sometimes. Then i wonder if i really want to get married someday. I dont want to fight all the time. My parents are currently not on speaking terms. Sometimes i feel like my life is falling into pieces all around me. I try so hard to keep things afloat that i just cant keep picking up the pieces. My family is broken now (not only my parents) i feel like im a world behind in school, and graduate school essays are creepin in and i jsut want to send out applications. Its so hard. God will take care of me, and my family. His will, will be done and i will be happy... although now it feels like my world is falling apart. Its hard for me to express my feelings on all of this. Writing is like therapy for me. sometimes i feel like im falling down a hole, and im drowning. this was a thoroughly depressinng post... please pray for my family.
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Love

Mother Teresa was quoted as saying, "There is more hunger for love and appreciation in this world than for bread." I was disturbed today to find out how many people on this campus are shallow and are just mean-spirited. Love is important. God tells us in Matthew 22:37-39 that 'You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart, and with all you soul, and with all your mind' This is the great and foremost commandment. The second is like it 'You shall love your neighbor as yourself'. Sure people on this campus arent all beautiful, they arent all thin supermodels, the guys arent abercrombie and fitch models either. It really bothers me when people go around saying how ugly are campus is, how wierd they are, how everyone is a nerd, and on and on... Sure, our campus is strange, its not like real life, but God loves these people. God loves them just as much as everyone else. He made them strange, he made them seemingly 'unattractive' on the outside, but i bet you that some of these people have a beautiful inside. They may in fact be more beautiful on the inside than you and me, and that is what really matters. God tells us to love one another, making fun of people, and putting others down saying they look like dogs is not showing love, its showing hate. It breaks my heart. I bet those people wake up like everyone else and say to themselves 'I want to look cute today, so im going to wear my cutest outfit'. Im not gorgeous and thats what i say. God loves you, all of you. Be kind to those who hate you, be kind to those who love you. Dont be selfish and stuck on yourself, its not attractive, and whatever outer physical attractive you had disappears. Putting others down is very unattractive. Love your neighbor as your self. Thats my rant for the day. Good thing no one reads this.. it may stir up trouble :) HA

Moo

So, well... its been a very long time. I just realized that its been so long that i didnt know you could add pictures without hello anymore.
I cant wait to go home! you have NO idea, in less than one month i will be SNOWBOARDING again. ahh... i get to use my new board and everything. This winter i will be working at killington again, but not as a lifty.. im gonna work in the baseshop doing sales, and other random things there. I dont think i will be working at darkside either. Darkside was the best job ever. It was really layed back and i got a free sweatshirt (which is now my favorite). I love winters, i think it may be my favorite time of year because of the snow.

Oh, good times at home. This Christmas will be a strange one. It will be the best and the worst all at once. Family is one of the greatests gifts God has given me. Well, i think im gonna go eat, but with any luck i will try to post more often. These classes have gotten me so busy i cant see straight. Hopefully i will apply to 4 Graduate schools by the end of the week. I jsut want to get the applications in and leave the rest to God. I love you guys! Sorry to keep you waiting so long, although i doubt you read this anyway.. leave a comment if you do, im kinda curious.